I have nothing better to do so here i am taking to you

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 00:10:31 GMT

dear memo,
there. poop noozle. i love you.
love devon.

The night of the day our love derailed

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 20:11:21 GMT

At your friends apartment you met a friend of a friend
a friend that you can talk to and even hugged him to
you hung out with him even when you talked to me on the phone
you would lie to my face and pretend it was nothing
so one nit you lied and went to her apartment he was there
You talked and made out and you still called me for a ride
I dropped you off and you still had the gut to kiss me good nite
YOU EVEN TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME
You told me acouple days later i lost it i screamed
and i cried and i asked you why you said i was mad and
i wanted to get back at you I said for what cause we fight
you lied and said he forced you only to find out you lied
and you made out willing you said you went overthere to tell
him you cant see him when days later you go to his house
you did it again you kissed him i call you i say what you
doin your at his house im at work i flip out but for good
reason you did it again how could you
HOW COULD YOU
I FORGIVE YOU I STILL LOVE YOU

i get piad today

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 21:34:13 GMT

Yes today is pay day but all of it will go to bills exept for 150 bucks so i have to servive off that for two weeks weep. DEVON I LOVE YOU HONEY<3 I I MISS YOU I WISH YOU WAS HERE YOU POOP NOZZLE ASSLICKING CRAPFACE WHO LICKS HER OWN BUTTHOLE. say hi yo sam for me

New song so read it and tell me if you like it or hate it.

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 19:57:42 GMT

I once knew a lonly girl
One that would cry her eyes dry
cry till the night has gone by
lying on the bench were she learned to fly
spun out of her mind
she thought she would die
what a sad way to die

You thought to fly was the way of life
tweeked from the speed you need
falling from here is as hard as it can be
tripped and tricked to believe that it would be easy

You seek help for these things
you met a clean kid or so you thought you did
you fell in love but he left you to rot
so you slept with him so he'd stay
he knocked you up and ranaway
now your back to your habits
you have a retarted baby

3 years later he's a toddler
crying cause he hurts so you feed him drugs
hes foaming at the mouth and your head spins
your trying to stop it but its ok
ITS DEAD

your moms a fag

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 20:04:17 GMT

Yea so im here being bored and stuff. I found a mixed martial arts facillity in old town so im going to call and check it out it has an opertunaty to trian in cage fighting and shit. Yea i want to kick ass cause i like to hurt and pian gets me going and i have alot of frustration to release on people that i would like to hurt and kill people. It feels so nice to get hit on the face. And i would olve to hit people in the face and shatter thier bones and sepreat thier lims from bones.

I learned new songs

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 19:30:05 GMT

I just learned to new songs on guitar, They were road to joy and first day of my life by bright eyes. Hell ya ur jeolous of my guitar skills.

cage training

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 19:19:17 GMT

Yea so in may i have a chance to go train for cage fighting so im thinking about going but its for like 3 weeks and shit. But it sucks cause i havent gone longer than a 2 day span without seeing devon ill miss her like crazy. 2 days compared to 3 weeks that sucks. So yea abunch of niggers messed with my baby so i want to slit there fucken thaorts and fucken hangem upside down and watch them bleed to death and shit. Ill fucken peel there top lyer of skin and sit them in front of a super high power fan while i put lime juice all over him so the ants can eat them alive.

Damn read only mode

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 19:05:48 GMT

My damn journal was in read only mode for half an hour and it pisses me off cause i wrote an entry twice and it was like im a gay fucken nigger and it was im read only bitch.

This weekend

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 19:28:43 GMT

Yea so this weekend was cool. Hung out with devon and stuff. watched texas chainsaw massacure and devon got scared and slept with her mommy. Made me mad cause she didnt talk to me. Yea well i havent fought anyone in a really long time and i want to fight someone i dont care who i just do i like fighting and o yea those kids in the chainsaw movie are abunch of idiots. They deserved to die those fools.

My new song

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 19:31:43 GMT

Yea so i wrote a new song so im going to post it so you guys tell me what you think:
Alone in your room with nothing to do
straing at the sun wishing it was you
feeling the burn of what boys have done to you
Plotting a plan for revenge it will taste sweet
Thinking to yourself one day it will be complete
hoping that one day youll forget all this shit
Alone in your bed lying next to nothing again
feeling empty from all the words you said in your head
Thinking its nothing from that wall inside your head
feeling the pain of that thing carving in your neck
Now its walking but your stummbling
its voices in your head
Now your lying in a bathroom full of blood
sliting your wrist for more of it to gush out
Counting the seconds for this to end
licking the tears as they come down your face
thinking of the boyfriend who once left
closing your eyes not knowing if your going to stay
You wake up in a place that you dont think is safe
HEre comes the nurse with some bad news to say
Sry about your daughter its alittle to late for her
Its only a matter of time before she bleeds to death
now you regret all this bull shit
Yea so that me song so tell me what you think

Im sick of it all

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 19:17:30 GMT

Fuck this shit im sick of it. I hate this bull crap i think its shit. I im sick if it fuck this shit im sick of it your going down this is a war.

another weekend done

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 06:03:25 GMT

Ya so i spent the whole weekend with devon. We fought as usual got over it as usual we kissed huged and made up. Yea so on sat we went to red robbin and eat. it was cool. sunday we went back with her mom and weate some more. Then today we stayed at her house all day. Yea again she promised to ware a skirt and she didnt =)

I love you

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 07:50:55 GMT

Today i spent the day with my devon and i said things i have never said before. well ive told her i loved her before and stuff like that but i accualy opened up to her and if you know me well you know i dont really open up to people. But i told devon stuff i never told anyone baby i love you honey. You are my sunshine my only sunshine.

Vages here i come (if devon lets me)

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 19:18:06 GMT

Yea im so bored it sucks. Saturday i might go to las vages with my friend darel i dont know yet it depends on my wife devon. Ive only been to vages once and it was gay cause i was like 14. Now im 20 and i look old enough to gamble that would rule. And legal prostitution. Yes hed here i come.Just kidding devon. Yea if i go were going to leave saturday nite and come back sunday nite so it would only be 1 nite but its up to the wife hell you could come darling.

I dont know

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 20:45:04 GMT

Yea so i woke up this mourning a i sign on to the internet and there she was signed on. Ive been talking to her all mourning and i feel happy. Yea so theres this girl and i love her very much and i want to marry and the notebook is just like our relationship and i know we fight but we can make it work. OF this iam sure. If we really love eachother we can me it work if over come our worst obsticle atleast in my eyes it was really hard. But honey i love you no matter what you did.

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 05:49:16 GMT

Yea so devon and i went to bright eyes on friday. It went well for awhile before we got on eachothers throats. We were out for blood. Yea i hate to drive here and driving in a town that i dont know sux even worse. Devon and i established that i need to take angermangement cause i lose it really quick. San diego sucked really bad not to mention its really ugly. The show was pretty good. The girl in front of us had big boobs and i looked down her shirt. So did devon. Yea im now convinced connor is gay. Sry girls. But yea and the rest of the weeked i spent with devon. Yea well see you guys later.

Bright Eyes

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 18:58:12 GMT

Yea so tonite is bright eyes and me and devon are excited to go. Im kinda cared cause i never driven in the rain all the way to san diego. I hope the rain stops and that makes my sad cause i like the rain but i dont like to drive in it. Ya i just took a break from writing music. all i have is the riff and acoulpe of lines. Maybe one day you guys will hear it. Yea right what are the chances of getting signed to a record deal. I need to find me a band as soon as possible. Yea well my break is over later.

I feel like being mean

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 18:33:36 GMT

Fuck all this fucken black history month bull shit i dont care for what they did. Its like devons mom said all black athletes should be in jail not the fucken b-ball court. And all these fucken beans trying to get recognition for that caser chavez dude fuck that you want brown pride go to mexico fucks. And all you dumbass white people that dont want beans here fuck you for trying to give recognition to may 5.(cinco de mayo) Thats not even the indepence day for mexico. And just fuck chinks i hate them i would fucken kill all them fucks.

Its one year and one month

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 18:39:36 GMT

Happy one year and one month anni. One year and one month and like 3 days ago i met you. I followed you around dennis house and beat you with my green sticky hand. Its been the best time of my life with you i love you honey even though were in a pretty big fight. Thank you for beening in my life and putting up with me and stuff but im off to go get you your present. I just tried to call you but you didnt answer your phone. oh well maybe your busy. I love you so much baby fuck what everyone else says.

Im bored

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 20:35:13 GMT

Yea so im sitting here on my puter doing nothing. I wish be with devon. Shes at school and i already left cause im smart or something. Yea well some stupid bitch left a stupid comment on devons journal wat the fuck soes she know she look like a godamn chink. She didnt even no and shit. And thats not what i said. But i still love you honey.

Wedding Bells

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 22:20:07 GMT

Last night i had a dream were me and devon were on thy alter getting married. I was i nervse wreck and she was as cool as the other side of the pillow. We both said yes. she put my ring on my finger and i did to her. Then i woke up and i realized it was my dream it broke my heart. Then i fell back asleep and i had dreamed of a white apartment and devon was in the bathroom and i kissed a little boy on the cheek and he said bye daddy i will miss you, and i said me to. Maybe i saw the future in 10 years. I sure hope so i love you devon. Im still sad i cant see you untill the weekend.

Devons mad at me

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 21:53:06 GMT

Devons mad at me cause i didnt wake up. Sry honey but i couldent sleep till 4 in the mourning. Please dont be mad honey i love you so much. I miss you honey bye love you.

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 20:21:24 GMT

So im sitting here doing nothing wat should i do. I guess im going to go play guitar or something. Were about 10 days away from bright eyes in san diego. Devons way excited and im like k woo. Oh well one night to sacarfice is ok cause when static lullaby comes she going with me. hahahahahahaha

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 05:28:51 GMT

And oh yea she didnt were the skirt so that sux

Sad cause devon isnt here

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 05:27:30 GMT

Just got home from devons house hung out with her all weekend and it was fun. I miss her so much its not far that i cant be with her forever. I wish she was here. I cant wait till next weekend to see her oh well love you baby.